Yay for seniorhood... ugh.

Let me tell you, I'm not sure if I love my planner or hate it, because it simultaneously keeps me organized and friggin' crushes me under all the pressure of Things To Do, Places to Be, People to Call... Oh well. I'll get over it or be crushed, I guess.

So I played in the rain today. That was pretty fun. Probably the most delightful thing that's happened to me all day.
I'm actually supposed to be doing homework right now. And here I am complaining about my self-imposed pressure.

So while I hate to be a down-bringer, I just thought I'd pause a moment and reflect on my three closest friend here at school, one of which has moved far, far away, and the other two who have had a falling out. To start with the advantage, I just have to say that I started getting a little closer to other people. One person, anyway. Maybe two. But the point is I seem to be branching out at least a tiny bit. But sadly, the disadvantage leaves me doing a lot of homework in my spare time. Which could be an advantage, except sometimes I feel like I need to... have a good freak out, you know? Just let it all go and flip out on somebody.

But that's okay. The urge comes and goes. And actually, now that I think about it, I'm beginning to see more opportunities with friends, except... well, I was just thinking of going to find out more about the term "Wallflower," because it could possibly help me understand why I'm so friggin' shy or whatever.

Oh. Speak of the devil. Hm... so Yahoo Beta is this new cool thing for my email, and it has messenger included, and I'm talking to someone I've never said a word to in person, because we all gave out our email addresses in AP Calc in exchange for all the answers to our homework (SCORE!), so... opportunities. But odd for me. If you haven't noticed, I'm an Internet chatterbox. And omg my Yahoo avatar is awful. How do I obliterate that stupid thing? Ugh.

If anyone here has yet to see The Prestige, by the way, you have to go see it, because it's frickin' awesome. I loved it. Totally adore that movie. We watched it at Austin's b-day party, and there was this debate about whether or not it was a clone or a brother (you'd know if you saw the movie), but I know it was a brother. At least I'm 99.999% sure. Because I don't think Tesla actually made a machine like that one previously, and it was all just part of Borden's trick on Angier. And then, when you think about their personalities, they're just too different! That's getting into whether or not a clone would have similar personality traits, but I doubt that they'd be too far off from the original, and the brothers were totally different people.

Okay. I'll just go do my homework now, seeing as I'm short on sleep and have a long day tomorrow. *sigh*

Time for my monthly update, I guess. So much has happened! All of April has been "Krystal do this! Krystal there's a trip! Krystal you have to do that! Krystal there's another trip! Krystal this is due TOMORROW! Krystal you need more sleep! Krystal you can't sleep yet! Krystal you're procrastinating!"

All of May will probably be "Krystal there's a test! Krystal there's another test! Krystal you're neglecting your oboe! Krystal your left hand SUCKS at mallets! Krystal there's a recital! Krystal the AP test is tomorrow! Krystal the seniors are leaving! Krystal YOU'RE A SENIOR!" ()

Anyway. I'll just copy excerpts from this letter I just sent to my babysitter in GA. It tells most of the major fun things that happened.

"...Our prom is this coming Saturday, but I've decided not to go. I'm going to see Spiderman 3 with [Katie] instead, if we can get in. If not, we'll probably go bowling (which I've never done before).

Our friends had us convinced to go for a while there, but then the two of us both had set backs... A movie is just more practical and way more fun. And neither of us has a dress anyway. Deniece was going to give me her lavender one (it's reeeally pretty) but she can't find it, and my friend's mother had planned on taking her dress shopping, [but couldn't].

So. It'll be senior year for me, which will only make it more special. And maybe by then I'll have opened up enough to meet some guy. And maybe not. I really don't expect to meet much of anyone until college anyway. ^^

Our band trip to Dallas, Texas was fun. We went to Six Flags, and I rode a rollercoaster! Can you believe it? No, it wasn't just the Mine Train (though I DID ride that one). It was a wooden one called the Texas Giant. And I had lots of fun. [Katie] ALMOST convinced me to ride The Titan, which is pretty infamous at that park, but we left just before I convinced myself that maybe I could have done it.

And I even conned Austin (another friend) into buying me a slushy for getting on the rollercoaster. He tried to get his girlfriend to go with us, but she was absolutely terrified and got out at the last moment. So it was the three of us, and we had loads of fun.

We also went to Medieval Times, and that was a blast. It's basically a show. You get assigned a color, which tells you which Knight you're supposed to cheer for. Ours was the Blue Knight. Then you wait around in the general shopping area until the show starts, and you get seated in your color section, and they serve you a meal without any silverware, and you eat it Medieval style: with hands. It was delicious. They gave us vegetable soup, bread, half a chicken, prime rib, a potato halve, and your choice of either Pepsi or Tea. I thoroughly enjoyed myself.

Our Knight won quite a few of the contests, but then he had to lose because it was part of the show. Every time he won, though, he got three flowers and tossed them to some girls in his section. I didn't get one, of course, and neither did any of my friends. That was my only disappointment in the Knight. But otherwise, I was literally screaming myself hoarse cheering him on and booing everyone else. Totally Medieval style.

Plus, I bought a sparkly blue crown, and liked it. It reminded me of the days when all I wanted was to be a princess.

And before the Dallas trip, I went to Katie's birthday party. Deniece and all my uncles happened to be down that same weekend, so Deniece got to go to the party with me. It was an absolute BLAST! Ah, you wouldn't believe it! We rode a Sea-Doo, and I got to drive. We went tubing and laughed ourselves breathless. We got pushed off the dock unexpectedly, and I decided to announce (while I was in the water) that I can't swim very well. Deniece was the smart one, because she pulled herself around to the ladder. It took two people to pull me directly from the water onto the dock.

Oooh, and introducing Deniece was a laugh in itself. Katie's mom automatically assumed I was the older one, because I'm taller and bigger than Deniece now, and she looks about 12 years old while I look about 14 or so. I made sure I was standing RIGHT next to her, nice and close, while I introduced her.

And even after we left the party, we did something so ditsy. I found a mysterious phone in my purse and we returned it to them, thinking it was Katie's or someone else's. Then we got 15 or so minutes away from the house when Austin called me and said that I had given them Deniece's phone. XD Can you believe that? We felt so dumb.

So yeah. I've made a lot of fun, happy memories this last year, and it's not even over yet. This summer I'll be at Mom's again, and she plans on taking me to New Mexico for about a week.

I also got through Driver's Ed, but the course wasn't a very good one, so I need more practice before I take the test. My Spanish class ended tonight. I did a presentation and then we went to dinner, which was fun.

...If I can remember to think of it, I'll print some pictures and send them to you. My Aunt caught a picture of me eating escargot for the first time. It's pretty funny, and you'll like seeing me in all my formal wear..."

End of letter.

Maybe I can post some of those pictures here, neh? Or maybe that's just not safe on the Internet. Probably not safe. I'll just bring them to school and show them off to people I actually know and go to school with.

So next year my schedule will look something like this:

Band
AP English Lit
AP Calculus
AP Chemistry
AP Spanish
Arkansas History/Counselor's aide
Instrumental Solo and Ensemble

Joy. I can't say I'm looking forward to it. This year already ran me through the ringer, but I did have those night classes, so... maybe I'll be able to handle more next year. And maybe I'll actually be driving myself, which will allow for more homework time and less bus-riding.

Overall I'm happy, but somewhat dreading the passage of time. Happiness doesn't last, after all. Things change in a mix of better and worse. Katie will move. I'll be a senior, and I'll have to make some awful decisions.

Unlike most people, I enjoy high school, and wouldn't miss a day of it just to sit around at home, gloating because I'm in the oldest age group. Woo. I'm an adult. So what? As if legal age means anything.

Excuse me while I take my mood swing somewhere else.